Blognya leli

tuh kan!
tuh kan!
tell me that im jealous, crazy or whatever between.
tapi plis de.
ke ade dy tu g bs kaya gt

blom lagi kalo ngobrol,
mo sama sapa aja dy tu mau diajak ngobrol.
asik bgt malah!
diliat pula!
sama ade?
plis de.

gitu bilangnya dy tu gitu..soalnya ade tu bla bla bla.
trus katanya dy tu gini…soalnya ade bla bla bla.
plis de.
bener ga sih?

trus, "plis de" slanjutnya,
dy bilangnya cuma bisa mastiin dari jauh kalo ade baik-baik saja.
PLIS DE!!!!!
gmn km bs bilang that im ok if the person who makes me not okay is you?
is you.
it’s you.

tika bole bilang gara2 praktikum ato sgala macem.
tp plis de. ("plis de" ke-5)
sebete-betenya ade ga munghkin lah org yg baik ke ade, ade jutekin juga!

trus, THAT ".txt"…
who is she…
your new lover,,,
or your lover in the past?
or…
your lover in the past, now, and forever?
whoever

folder2 itu…
flashdisk2 itu…
cerita2 itu…
cerita2 ittuhh…

yah, salah ato bener jgn slahin cerita.
karna cuma dr situ ade tw.

soalnya…
kalo liat dari sikapmu mah…

udah lah , de…
ade aja kali ya, terlalu keGRan.

-dont look at me like you really love me
dont take me high if you dont want me
dont think its easy to be the one that you love and forget
and the things are quite interesting-

tapi ya harusnya ade ga judes ya ma dy…
du….y gini de resikonya org ekspresif…
suka org, kliatan….
sebel juga, ga bisa nutupin…
ah ya sud.

2 kali…

2 flashdisk…

2 nama…

g tw berapa yang lainnya…

im not jealous, i dont get moved by much

im not enraged, not insecure as such

not going insane, rational stays in touch

doth i protest too much

im not tortured by how oft youre busy

im not disappointed about how you dont miss me

im not needy, i dont get clingy much

i am not scared, im not afraid as such

im not dependent, rock solid stays in touch

doth i protest too much

i dont cringe when you stare at women beda ma ke gueh…

im not saddened, walopun tnyata km bs terbuka ma sapa aja.

asik ma sapa aja.

ngobrol ma sapa aja.

ttg apa aja.

kecuali ma gueh…

im not concerned about yg-ga-penting2-bgt-de, yg sepele2..ga ko.

im not depressed, i dont get down that much

im not despondent, i am not dark as such

im never "sad", keep chin up stays in touch

doth i protest too much

yah..cm jadi tambah ga yakin ajah…

thanks to…

alanis…

for the song…

i wont see my dear friends as much
male friends especially ill no longer be in touch
ill change my hobbies to match yours

ill stop reading my favorite books
i wont spend all this selfish time alone
ill cater to you and hang on your every word

ill be subservient and spineless
ill lick your boots as empty shell
ill be opinion-less and silent
ill be the prettiest appendage to ever lose herself

ill redefine self-sacrifice
live my life as apologetic compromise
i know you’d leave if i rocked the boat

i feel this, truly proclaimed, will help the curbing of this tendency
i know this sharing of shame will ensure that i wont forget myself so easily

ill be low maintenance and agreeable
i will not talk about my dreams so much
ill listen to you for hours, wont need for anything

hohohohoho…
any comment?
apa ya?
feodal banget?
pa mang harusnya gitu?

I wish
wishing for you to find your way
and i’ll hold on for all you need
i’ll take my chancec while
you take your time with
this game you play
but i can’t control your soul
you need to let me know
you leaving or you gonna stay

you’re the only one i ever believed in
the answer that could never be found
the moment you decided to let love in
now i’m banging on the door of an angel
the end of fear is where we begin
the moment we decided to let love in

there’s nothing we can do about
the things we have to do without
the only way to feel again
is let love in

thanks to…
Goo Goo Dolls…
for the greatest song…

malu bgt ih!!!
knapa buat jaga diri aja ade kudu diingetin orang lain?
orang lain.
mmmmmmm…..
kalo mang dia doain ade brubah…
amiiiiinnnnnnnnnn!!!!!!
ya Allah amin….
smoga Allah mengabulkan.
biar ade ditunjukkin sama Allah.
dengan alesan apapun.
dah nganggep ade adek kek,
gemes kek,
karna ade nakal kek,
karna ade autis kek,
ya…ditunjukkinnnya ga dengan cara itu ya!!!!!!!!
iya bener..
ga kuat nerusin.
pokonya.
Alhamdulillah, Allah masi mau ngingetin ade…
brarti ade ga boleh nyia2in ini yah…
beneran loh de…
alesan apapun ya…
bener loh…
jgn autis juga.
suka ga nyadar…
srasa dr papa.
yg ini kudu diinget2 loh.
harus nyadar.
harus nyadar.
yah…
o iya.
makasi buat yg dititpin Allah ngingetin ade soal ini.
makasi bgt.
hu……………
benernya ga kuat ngomong ini…
malu bgt!!!!
yah…
beneran ya de ya…
kudu nyadar ya de ya…
inget inget…
jangan lupa…
beneran!

… puasaku

hanya Engkau yang tahu

bahkan aku pun tak begitu tahu

apakah aku sedang berpuasa atau sekedar lapar dan dahaga

…

aku cuma ingin belajar

mengikhlaskan seluruh perbuatanku hanya untukMu

…

meskipun kalimat itu terasa lucu

karena Engkau memang tak butuh sesuatu

…

Agus Mustofa, Scientific Fasting

hm,,,
pada kmana seh???
kapan pada pulang????
berdua doang di rumah…

mo nulis apa ya?
ga punya duid…..
alah, ga penting.

he…iya ga penting, tapi mempengaruhi mood yah….

yawislah whatever.

ga da komik baru…

Niwa…kenapa kau harus ke stt…
tidak ada lagi yg mensuplai komik baru ke sini…
harus nyari sendiri…
tp gpp, kan MoU kita sudah diperbarui H-1 kepergianmu bukan????
alah, bahasanya ade ko jadi gini sih?
baku bgt..
seperti…seseorang…
hwehehehehehe….
blom crita ya?
ade dah d sms loh…
hwahahahahahahaha…
ga ngira…
tp g bharap byk sih.
klo kt JoJo sih, "its just too little too late"…
mmm tp yawda lah, lagian skarang juga dia dah ga sms lagi…
waktu itu…dia lagi kecapean kali..
hwahahahahaah ngelindur gitu.
ah, gila.
gini mah ade yg ngelindur kali…
kmana2 gt…

ye…tnyata ntar malem papa pulang…
papa tok sih,
ya stidaknya, tar malem bertiga d rmh.
sepi…sepi…

o iya, td ade baca bbs.
(stelah skian lama)
forum umum.
mmmm…perang opini.
dalem hati ni,
kesian loh sama dia,
dan partnernya tentu saja.
dia sih, yg lebih kasian.
dia yg banyak di bbs sih.
kalo ade yg digituin dah apa ya?
ga tau de, stres kali.
ga kebayang dianya pas baca.
stres ga ya?
nangis gitu?
ah, ya ga dia bgt kali ya, nangis.
tp…
pnasaran, dia nanggepin kaya gitu gimana sih?
dr dalem hatinya.
ato ekspresinya pas baca de.
gimana sih?
skali2 poo..
berekspresi apa…gitu.
pokonya de.
kesian,,,,,,,, , ,,,,,  , ,

pantes ya dia ga sempet mikirin cew.
huahahahahahaahahahahah

ade gila beneran.

ga ada lagu baru….
kmaren maunya ke aquarius,
ga sido, duwek’e wis entek..

garing euy.

ade ga ngerti ya,
tapi org yg marah2 tanpa solusi tu…
apa ya?
ya tau sih, kalo mang dah "gilo" gt ya,
kerja bareng juga ga mau.
tapi kalo cuma gt doang jg,
mang bakal ada ngaruhnya ya?
yg ada paling : terbentuk opini publik, terkumpul komunitas "senasib & sependapat", dan orang2 yg sakit hati..
ade sih mikirnya gitu.
yg ngaruh buat HM** nya apa?
(ni jujur pertanyaan yg ade ga tau jawabannya, tp ade pgn tau bgt, bener)

beda kan, ma postingannya *******99,
abis baca itu ade jd inget salah satu games di TD8,
yg pake lakban item tu loh…
demi, demi "aturan lakban item",
demi PRINSIP

kalo mang prinsipnya sama2 pgn HM** maju,
knapa g bisa kaya games itu?
ato mang gamesnya aja ya, yg ga bener?

ade tambah gila.

we…niwa sms, katanya di bandung dia dah nemu…
jd dia tetep jd supplier-ku…
hwehehehehehe
bahagia.

sek ya, disuruh ngemail daftar harga dulu.

lanjoot…

eh, dahan aja de ya, ngantuk euy.

I can be an asshole of the grandest kind
I can withold like it’s going out of style
I can be the moodiest baby
And you’ve never met anyone
As negative as I am sometimes

I am the wisest woman you’ve ever met
I’m the kindest soul with whom you’ve connected
I have the bravest heart that you’ve ever seen
And you’ve never met anyone
As positive as I am sometimes

You see everything
You see every part
You see all my light
And you love my dark
You dig everything
Of which I’m ashamed
There’s not anything to which you can’t relate
And you’re still here

I blame everyone else, not my own partaking
My passive agressiveness can be devistating
I’m terrified and mistrusting
And you’ve never met anyone who’s closed down as I am sometimes

You see everything
You see every part
You see all my light
And you love my dark
You dig everything
Of which I’m ashamed
There’s not anything to which you can’t relate
And you’re still here

What I resist, persists, and speaks louder than I know
What I resist, you love, no matter how low or high I go

I am the funniest woman that you’ve ever known
I am the dullest woman that you’ve ever known
I am the most gorgeous woman that you’ve ever known
And you’ve never met anyone as everything as I am sometimes

You see everything
You see every part
You see all my light
And you love my dark
You dig everything
Of which I’m ashamed
There’s not anything to which you can’t relate
And you’re still here
And you’re still here
And you’re still here

mmm,,,coba ya…ada…

ga perlu kenalan dulu untuk senyum,

ga perlu ada yg lucu untuk senyum,

ga perlu disenyumin dulu untuk senyum,

ga perlu mikir dulu untuk senyum,

ga perlu malu-malu untuk senyum,

gt ta?

mo senyum mah, senyum ajah… ;p

why…
does…
it…
go…
so…
soon…??

yg lama ditunggu…
akhirnya datang…

yg tlah datang…
disangkal2…

yg disangkal2…
skarang pergi…

yg dah pergi…
disesali…

ga bisa ngelarang…
walopun ga pingin ditinggal…

mending mana :
ditinggal orang yg kita sayangi,
atau
ditinggal rasa sayang itu sendiri…?

hm…
ade kira…
ade kira…

berbahagialah orang yang dianugerahi rasa sayang,
bersyukurlah orang yang bisa merasakan hal itu,

karena SEDANG menyayangi ternyata lebih indah ketimbang PERNAH menyayangi.

lama hilang, muncul dengan tiba-tiba.
kini hilang, dengan tiba-tiba pula.
seakan tergesa…

tp gpp,
mungkin kedatangannya yg lambat,
dan kepergiannya yg cepat,
cuma salah satu cara biar kamu bisa lebih ngehargain waktu dia "mampir"

tersenyumlah, karena rumah dari perasaanmu adalah hatimu sendiri, dan yang pergi, pasti akan pulang ke rumah.

jangan bilang "slamat tinggal", ucapkanlah "sampai jumpa"

tersenyumlah sekali lagi, jika kamu meyakini dia akan kembali.

kaya bukan ade,,,
ga, beneran ade ko,
ade yg lagi ganti mood.